Just trying to find my way…

I think that moving through life is one of the most interesting things.  I never know what is going to happen next and I guess I like that, for a lot of reasons.  I know – I should want to know what’s next, but I think if I did, I would just get in the way.

Grandma died at 95 years of age.  She had vascular dementia but was strong and sassy and social.  I was privileged to be there when she stopped living in this dimension.  It was the start of new life for her and a return to my old life.  I had given months of my life to being with her on her journey out of her failing body and mind and into something I cannot even imagine adequately.  The minute she left, she freed me to do whatever else there is to do.  Now, I get to figure that out.  Sometimes I am intrigued by this process and sometimes overwhelmed.  I want so much in terms of experiences and accomplishments in this life – mostly in the realm of learning, growing, and sharing what I learn.

So, I am planning.  I’ve gotten myself into yet another school, but in a totally different field – art (website design) a la the International Academy of Design and Technology Online.  I am learning to express myself again in prose, in poetry, in technical verbage, and in pictures or representation thereof.  I am enjoying myself immensely.  Where will this take me when I grow up?  I don’t know, but it is the most challenging and wonderful thing I’ve done since becoming a mom to my amazing children.  I never really think of myself in terms of creative art, but that’s where I’m headed.  My friend, Carol Combelic (aka “Fibermaniac” – you can Google her), stirred up my interest again in needlework, and wanting to design came out of that.  It was an easy step from there to website design, because I want to market via the internet.  It just seems to flow.  I want also to study/learn/use writing in all of this.  I feel like I have arrived – back at the age of 11, wanting to do just what I wanted to do then (except for the computer part – it was 1958).  How does this fit in with God?  I don’t know yet.  THERE is the adventure and I can’t wait for the next chapter to be written!!!  See you down the road a piece…